times are tough

This has been a tough weekend. We have had pizza, chocolate cream cake, and Top o' the River. So, the graph on my Noom app has started climbing back up. I keep thinking about how it was when I could go into my closet, pick out any article of clothing, put it on, and look good. Instead of motivating me, that is only making me feel even farther from my goal.

So I am looking high and low for my motivation to keep going. I know I can do this. I have done it before. WHY IS THIS SO HARD?

a dove from above?

Can God speak through chocolate? Because you know how those Dove chocolate candies have little messages inside the wrapper? I received some for Christmas, and I have been slowly nibbling on them since then. In the small bag, I have received the same message three times...so far: "Make someday today." Wow. Could I really be receiving inspiration from a piece of chocolate? I guess stranger things have happened, right?

So, for now, I will take whatever message in whatever form....hoping it hits home once and for all.

what easily besets you?

Hebrews 12 says "Let us lay aside every weight, and the sin that doth so easily beset us." That was a scripture that was part of my devotion this morning. As I pored over this verse, I realized that gluttony is the sin that so easily besets me. But even more than that, is the sin of putting ANYTHING before God. For me, I have learned to take comfort in food, instead of God. This part of my journey focuses on getting my thoughts and desires in line with God's thoughts and desires for me.

So each time I considered going into the classroom across the hallway to get some chocolate, I set aside the sin that was trying to easily beset me. And I found my own chocolate.....in smaller amounts....

Baby steps....

from beyond

I have almost made it through one day, and am not too disappointed with myself, even though the leftover Valentine's candy is calling me from beyond the pantry. I have repeated my goal weight to myself several times today. I am not sure if that is a reality check or a wake up call or even a strategy to get my fingers off the chocolate. So, while I still have a long journey ahead of me, all I need is grace for the day. My focus is not on the journey ahead.....it is on today....Lord, just help me through today.....

and if I can get through today, I can ask for another day's grace tomorrow....and that is exactly what I intend to do.

a funny thing

It has recently come to my attention that the slogan for a popular weight loss company is "Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels." If that were true, I would not need to reconsider my choices in an attempt to get myself back where I was not so very long ago. I was skinny. Now I am not. I watched my weight slowly creeping back up, still thinking all the while that I had everything under control. I obviously did not, and overnight, it seemed, I suddenly found myself staring at a number I never thought I would see again. It has gone on long enough. Today is the day. My someday is now. Join me in my journey. It is going to be a long one, and I could use some company along the way.